Moving on when you are still in love is tough, but moving on when you are no longer in love is tougher,
Only you know what you had to go through to pass where you are and only you can account for your pain,
Only you know how many nights you had to sleep through to stop torturing yourself and only you know how many mornings you woke up to feeling a void inside you,
Only you know how passionately you prayed to heal and only you know that you gave more than just your heart to them,
Only you know how many tears it took for you to finally stand and smile and only you know how many times you had to let go to actually let them go,
Only you know how much you loved them and what it took for you to un-do them,
Sure your heart is not delicate anymore and love is not your weak spot anymore, but giving away even a tiny piece of yourself to someone is not something your heart is ready for anymore,
The trepidation is not because you lost what you loved it’s because you lost when you felt,
You don’t have the strength to love and lose again, you are afraid to fall for someone again, and you have lost too much already to give again,
This is the thing about heartbreak no matter how vehemently you cry, your tears are only yours to wipe, you are the only escape and this is only your journey to live,
So please, wipe your tears and live your journey, empowerment awaits you. Don’t question your tears and stop hating yourself to feel pain for them, it’s only your heart antidote to make you stronger, when you have already gave them so much of you it’s ok to shed some tears too.
The beauty of love is in the way you fall in it and after everything that you have been through to self heal, you can’t convince your heart to go over the entire process all over again. The flirting, the love, the promises, the intimacy, the fights, the tears, the insecurities, the seperation and the drama, it’s just not all worth it again,
You could be ready to move on but not ready to give your heart away just yet, and it’s ok.
With live and virtual hugs,
Your companion in love, hate, indifference and success.
Astha Srivastava ♥️